We don’t
often get to hear what subjects think when they see their portraits published
in a magazine. Film critic Roger Ebert, whose lower jaw and salivary glands
were surgically removed four years ago as part of his cancer treatment, has
written on his Chicago Sun-Times blog about the shock –followed by relief-- he
felt when he saw his close-up photo by Ethan Hill in the latest issue of
Esquire.
“I got a
jolt from the full-page photograph of my jaw drooping. Not a lovely sight. But
then I am not a lovely sight, and in a moment I
thought, well, what the hell. It's just as well it's out there. That's how I
look, after all.”
Ebert
notes that in the years since his surgery, he’s “studiously avoided looking in
the mirror.” He writes:
“I mentioned that it was sort of a
relief to have that full-page photo of my face. Yes, I winced. What I hated
most was that my hair was so neatly combed. Running it that big was good
journalism. It made you want to read the article.”
Hill says
Esquire director of photography Michael Norseng had requested he shoot a close-up, which was “cropped ever so slightly,” Hill says, in the final layout.
Hill says he didn’t try to make the photo either flattering or shocking, but
simply to be “as honest and straightforward as possible, the way Roger writes.”
He lit
Ebert with a single softbox overhead, “which is kind of my standard,” and used
a piece of gray foamcore he bought when he arrived in Chicago as his backdrop.
“I try not to ask people to do anything for the camera, because the more they
do, the faker it gets.”
Over the
five hours Hill was in the writer’s home, Ebert, who can no longer speak,
communicated through notes that Hill would read aloud. Hill photographed Ebert going about his
day: working in his study on a
laptop while lying back in a reclining chair, because soreness from surgeries
on his shoulders and hip (to extract pieces of bone used to try to rebuild part
of his jaw) have left him too sore to sit upright for long stretches. Hill also
photographed Ebert in his bedroom surrounded by books.
Hill says
there’s “nothing special” about the portrait. “All I did was show up on time.
What’s special is that it’s Roger, and he’s been away [from the public eye] for
a long time and he’s aged a lot in the last five or six years. It’s not a
shocking picture, it’s just who he has become since we’ve seen him last.”
Hill adds, “He’s as vivid and brilliant as ever.”
The full Esquire profile of Ebert, with more of Hill's photos, can be found here.
Photo above: © Ethan Hill for Esquire